How much are thoughts worth,
if a dollar sign can be tagged to each?
It used to be a penny, with inflation,
now, it’s gotta be more.
Are thoughts good or bad?
How does one tie a value to them?
A thought can summon a storm,
put a man on the moon,
or scare the shit out of you.
Perhaps, not all should see the light of day,
yet, how can we be certain? Surely,
they ought to be seen by the thinker,
not held back from a pretty journal!
I used to find it a challenge keeping up with daily journaling. I could get a pretty notebook but even that didn’t entice me to write. In fact, it made it harder. I was stressed out with what to print in the book. My inner critic started judging me for my messy handwriting and shaming me for not having “creative” or “good” thoughts put down in the book.
Over time, I changed to a plain notebook which was more economical. Since I was doing the practice of Morning Pages daily, I was filling up my pages really fast. And guess what, I still caught myself holding back some of my thoughts.
Since then, I’ve made a pact with myself, committing to put every single thought down before judging them. Good or bad, hey, I deserve to see them. And surprise! I bought a slightly prettier notebook recently because I’m determined to fill it up with whatever thoughts I have. Not only do I deserve to see them, my thoughts matter to me. They don’t have to be seen by others but here’s when I start practicing being honest with myself.
How about you, dear one? How are you filtering your thoughts? What judgment are you having on yourself? Why and how did that come about?